I let the water run
let myself seep
this is what you call being contained
water contained
silence contained
am i contained
by life’s guilty pleasures
but really what the fuck
because i cant find the words
lurk, rust, agony, grief, focus
its all been said before
why are they never enough
why are we never enough
in this flawed universe
so perfectly pottered from his hands
but wait i am too
am i missing something?
potential
i think of potential
and jail cells
i touch down and feel erotic
with this skin over bones
weak flesh
weak bones
a strong being
when can you trace my contours
why do we rely on one another
merely bound
my mother says not to waste water
i think of the thirsty
for life
for love
for lust
i close my eyes
he says to let the filth leave
drain it out
meu amor
i tell her all the time
she lets herself lose
she’ll love to dance in your arms
wearing all white
everything so pure
thats what i am supposed to be
why these names
why these labels
HERE COMES THE SUN LITTLE DARLIN’, AREN’T YOU GLAD TO SEE IT?
Nina,
leave me alone
i have a lump in my throat
i turn the tap off
stay still
they’re so loud
so many of her
are so loud
in this silence
so much noise i hear
can you listen
He does
i try to uuh vice versa
but i am in front of his ventricles’ steps
he don’t let me in no no no my baby my baby i wonder when he gonna let me in
why he giving me quests but hey i don’ mind
as long as he still infatuated, he still mineeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i like creating my own tunes and words
Quero cantar como um pássaro
no one can own anybody, he is free to leave
i laugh in my mind
but my lungs
they weep
if you could only
starve me
then feed me
and free me
until i
run my fingers in my long black brittle hair and
leave them to soak in a tub full of ambition.
Why don’t you give me the strength you’re supposed to?
SecretlyDivine 